HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!!!!

I figure since you all are being so wonderful leaving me comments (which is sometimes the absolute highlight of my day) I would write you another blog entry. We're leaving for Calgary TOMORROW!!!! It's 11pm and I still have so much to do, yet here I sit!
- find the needles so I can finish the stockings on the way there
- pack our clothes
- take presents out to car
- figure out what food we're taking and get it ready
- make sandwiches
- drop off treats and cards for three more neighbours
- get a new bank card I lost mine
- call the airline to find out their weight limits (not because of how much we've been eating, but because I finally ordered Katelyns crib and we have to bring it home from Oregon with us)
- get a good nights sleep
- clean my house, I hate coming home to a dirty house after holidays!

So I really shouldn't be writting anymore, but I wanted to wish you all a very merry Christmas if I didn't get the chance later. This picture isn't super recent but it's the one I sent in Christmas cards so I didn't want to spoil the surprise, but uhh yea I realize now that was pretty pointless.
This are going great lately by the way. The past few weeks have been weird. I feel so happy and content yet we're dealing with all this crap we didn't even realize was there. It's just this weird distance we have with eachother and it's hard to realize it's there. Last night my friend Chanda (I think I still have the link to her blog, if not I'll put it back) came over. God really used that time to change my heart and show me my horribly selfish attitude lately. Thank you Chanda! Honestly it was just one of those amazing times when God really speaks to you. We had such a good talk and such a good talk with God, I could just feel His spirit fill the house. Afterwards Matthew and I talked and again we both just got shivers and felt Gods presence so strong with us. I realize how lazy I've been with my relationships lately. I realized that being with God can be addictive and exciting and it doesn't have to be something you make yourself do. I want that excitment in my relationship with Him. I want to crave Him more. Another cool thing was hearing again and having it really sink in the fact that we are not condemned but FREE!!! What a feeling! When I meet with God I should feel His grace and love not his condemnation. Also that God wants to meet with me even more than I want to. He's just waiting for me to fall on my knees and I'm so stinkin stubborn! It was so good to talk this all out, realize everything again, learn more, and just repent. Thank you Jesus!
So yea I'm pretty excited to feel alive again. I'm so excited to celebrate Jesus' birthday with our families! We're flying from Calgary to Oregon for a few days so we'll see both fams. We'll miss Matthews brother Micheal and Christa and their two kids very much, but it will be a blessing to see everyone else. So I hope you all have a wonderful time this Christmas, and like I said last time, discover the real meaning of Christmas. It's not even about family and good will 'n all that, even though thats wonderful 'n stuff. It's so much deeper and the most exciting earth shattering truth ever. I'm starting to read a book on true Christmas traditions, I'll let you know how that goes. Oh and I just read the complete works of Beatrix Potter, so good! Yes I am still a child sometimes. Love you all, ciao!